“AIR”

 
As I stare at the bluemoon outside my window;
I heard a silent awful cry;
I don't understand but as I hardly search for it;
The more and the deeper I experience a stabbing pain;
 
I knelt down and cry;
Fold my hands and lift up high;
Suddenly I remember and felt the pain;
The pain -- I endured for so long, long time ago...
 
Then suddenly a tear fall from my face;
It’s warm;
I close my eyes and fell off to the ground;
Who’s that girl behind my thought? Is she closely related to me?
 
A flash of memories comes running into my mind;
Is he all right? Will he recognize me by that time I’m away?
That very moment I can no longer watch him;
Watch him walking along the street with his love one;
 
For maybe now, or soon…
My eyes can no longer accompany him on his way home;
Nor watch the sweetest smile I’ve ever seen,
Nor witness his beautiful, sanctifying face;
 
A blood stream from my chest;
And suddenly I feel like I’m running out of air;
But why? I’m so confused, I don’t know…
Why  these things are happening to me? What’s happening?
 

At that moment I want to touch his face;
Even for this very moment before I’m gone,
But why… why I can’t? why I just can’t? I plead for justice Oh God, answer me…
I can’t move, my whole body’s getting numb;
 
There’s nothing I can do but to let my very tired eyes to speak to him
My eyes smiled at him saying:
“No need to worry now my LOVE, I know everything will be fine;
I don’t know when, but maybe later… I will be that every air you’re going to breathe”
 
And as I saw my spirit flowing in the firmament;
I know I let you live; I let you live to experience life, to love somebody;
Somebody who will love you eternally…
For love means life, because the life love gives is eternal;
 
My tears fall for so much happiness you bring;
Sooner or later I will just love you far from this world;
Where true feelings and emotions live;
Because my love for you is like the air you breathe;
You never see it, nor touch it by your bare hands;
You just feel it;
And that feeling only belongs to you;
Because I’m like the wind, the air…
My LOVE brings…

And then there he stood up crying powerlessly at the girl’s bedside; and while he’s trying to hand the letter over the girl’s hand he saw another writing at the back of the paper… “TO THE MAN I SECRETLY LOVE WITH ALL MY HEART: JEFFERSON DIMAANO…” and his eyes widely stared her very pale face with a big surprise in his mind…” what? You’re loving me for over 6 years ? that long without making it so obvious for me to notice your love?” and in that very moment in his heart, he know he felt SOMETHING…
It’s the AIR.