Between Arrival and Departure
“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.” - Anais Nin
(For Jana Maris)
That gnawing, remote feeling of parting from someone close is more intense and haunting than the romantic encounter between two people. It is this lingering convulsion of loss when one begins to ruminate how a cherished encounter winds up to a rancorous end. Perhaps, if one had the capability to change the course of time, he or she would go back to the path where all the extraordinary encounters converge and happen.
But no one had the power to revert the irreversible certainty of departure from arrival and neither one could change or alter the inevitable processes and forces of nature.
Everything arrives and departs at a particular time and space of its respective existence. The rising and setting of the sun, for instance, paves the way for the coming of nightfall in the same manner, as dawn departs at the bursting of morning light from the eastern horizon.
Everything is subject to the tedious rhythms of coming and leaving, of entrance and exit, of birthing and dying, of hello and good bye... But in between these invincible rhythms, something ineffable takes place, something transcendent and indispensable than the reality of arrival and departure.
If only one could seize and live that ineffable in-between, then all arrivals and departures would conflate into a single entity of all that there is and what is to come. Everything becomes a defining moment of all encounters where beginning and ending are no longer consequential.
Departure becomes an encounter and arrival becomes the completion of a particular departure. One can find joy even in sadness, victory in defeat, kindness in ruthlessness, love in hatred, and so on and so forth...
And when that happens, utopia or heaven is no longer a distant aspiration to be dreamt and cherished, but an inch away from the human touch!
*Also published at http://dcsillada.multiply.com/
Danny C. Sillada
Painter-poet-philosopher-critic-musician-performance artist from Mindanao; obtained BA Philo., STB and Pastoral Theology at UST, Manila; left the seminary before ordination to priesthood; pursued MBA at Ateneo Graduate School of Business, Makati; resigned from promising career in the corporate world to become full-time artist and literary writer.
An encounter in grace and
Submitted by dcsillada on September 16, 2007 - 8:03pm.
An encounter in grace and love with life and others can be considedred a miracle. Miracle can happen if we will it; it can happen for those who believe in the beauty of life, the true meaning of love and the goodness of others. Miracle is an invincible light that we see inside despite the bleakness of the world around us.
Thanks :)
Peace & love,
Danny
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Our path emerges for a while, then closes within a dream...
they say..
Submitted by augusta linnea ... on September 17, 2007 - 2:26am.
love.
and when you get hurt love more and more and more
until you are hurt no more...
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hmmmmm...
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"love, just like faith, is beyond reason." -linnea
I'm flattered!
Submitted by Jana Maris on September 16, 2007 - 1:10am.
First I would like to extend my heartfelt gratitude for your piece that makes my nose bleed.
Hehe! Just kidding…
Yes, I still believe in miracle.
Departure doesn’t always mean the end.
When someone leaves, there is always the possibility of coming back.
If this is the condition, arrival of someone who has already part of you would just be a second chance given to make things better and to put things in order.
This could be considered as miracle since human capability is limited and certain actions happen beyond the consciousness of individual.
Your faith can save you…
It was just last summer when I took up a silent retreat at Sacred Heart retreat house of jesuit.
It was only then that I found happiness despite of bitterness and hatred.
That, perhaps validate your claim.
I long for that grace to come…
And He never failed me.
He said that I should not stop loving that person.
Love must always seen as a grace that is given to us.
The main cause of the pain that I am carrying is primary the unmeet expectation.
Probably it is my false perspective in loving and that departure is not anticipated in this course.
Well, after I overcome the pain and hatred, I found myself back to him.
And again since I have no control of other consequence, I failed for the second time.
It takes two to tango so I would involve myself to this failure though the main cause was him.
I just feel hypocrite at this moment for what had happened.
I just thought I already gave my best to save our relationship.
Maybe I have to accept that there are people who doesn’t care anymore of what they are doing nor if they are already hurting others.
They have not yet found themselves and lack knowledge about life.
I pity myself for this failure because it cost me a lot.
It is my first time to experience this loneliness.
..hope to bring back the broken pieces of my heart and see again the beauty of love.
The next time I fall in love, it would be inspired by my past.
Thanks again…
God bless>”<
A Reason to Love
Submitted by dcsillada on September 16, 2007 - 8:13pm.
Hi Jana, you're welcome and thank you too. I'm glad that you're doing fine despite the lingering pain inside.
I just want to quote from my essay on love titled "A Reason to Love" for you to reflect. You can click the link and read the whole essay.
"It is in the remoteness and the distances of everything, that compels a person to seek justification and meaning why he or she has to continue loving. It is in constant loving that we slowly heal all wounds; the same wounds that nurture and enliven the true meaning and understanding of love. No one can fully give love in authenticity unless the lover or the giver of love is broken and that same brokenness will embrace the wounds and the brokenness of others."
"...the existence of love resides within the heart and soul of humanity. The true experience of love is nurtured by struggles and sacrifices; it develops, grows, and seeks for the good and the well-being of the beloved. The true nature of love is giving unconditionally rather than receiving, and the giver of love is the one who benefits from giving because love is a liberating experience in itself rather than selfish, jealous, or resentful."
I wish the best for you.
Peace & love,
Danny
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Our path emerges for a while, then closes within a dream...
kudos.
yeah....
everything has an end.
it is what we often times forget.
so its so hard to let go.
but there is this question about miracle,
and it says
what if miracles are true?
and miracles can revert the irreversible;
can stop a departure;
can alter the inevitable processes and forces of nature;
and so many things.
what if this miracle is true?
just like as it can turn back the love that has already been lost in total darkness of falling-out of it.
and what if on the moment you decide to turn your back from this love miracle is just a second away to revive it.
what if? ;p