"Fantasy" or "In Your Dreams" ?
While you were sleeping, I was telling this in your face. While your eyes are shut and while you are not listening and that your thoughts may be at some paradise right now…. I want to tell you that I LOVE YOU.
Yeah, yeah I know we just had sex and of course it was as always blissful. And if you are hearing me right now… “Just go back to sleep” is definitely what you’re going to say. “Don’t tell me you want more?” Sometimes you also utter that.
When will you believe that your presence gives glow to my everyday life? Each time I hold your fingers and make it intertwine with mine and then kiss them when I couldn’t help it even if people are staring, when will you not pull back? When will you stop saying “It’s just shagging? It’s just sex?” When will you look straight into my eyes and tell me that you miss me too, instead of “Asshole, where in pete’s cave have you been this time?” or “Do you have some ciggy?”
Yes, I love you. It’s not just the fucking that I am loving you for. I know you are excellent with your blow job. I know that every encounter in bed with you is ecstatic. I even call it “making love” already. Fuck it! Even if you never believed in it. Oh… you just want to be a bitch always. You want to call the shots. You want the control. And you know that I would beg.
But I am loving you more because of your wit, your strength, your personality. You don’t even look attractive to many. But you always leave me with something to think every time we chat. And that includes the battle whether I should convince myself that you are beautiful or not. I look into those eyes and I just get lost. I hear your honest words and it stings, it swings me to the core. You are so brutally frank. There’s no gentleness in your speech. You are filthy. Come to think of it, I gave you flowers once but you shoved it on my face. Because you said flowers are psychological symbols of a vagina. And since men are so obsessed with vaginas, you’ve practically instilled in my subconscious mind that I should respect you, even if you don’t really deserve it. Damn, I never knew you were this crazy, this wild. And with that I have loved you more. I don’t know why. And even if I bang my head to this wall at my back right now, I could never imagine how I have fallen to a lunatic like you. And now, I know I’m going cheap.
I talk to you while you are sleeping because this way, I can imagine the words you will tell me when I say those words. Because I got tired of thinking the opposite meanings of what you say whenever you are awake.
“I love you” Yes, I just whispered those in your ears. So soft… because I don’t want you to hear it. So gentle, because I don’t want to wake you up. So faint, because I don’t want you to know. I need to keep it in me because I don’t want it to end. I still want to love you, even if I know you love me too but you are just so out of your mind to admit it. You are just too proud to feel needy, to feel emotional. You are so ecstatic and you don’t want to fall. I know. So let it be.
(Isn't is lovelier to love in secret?)
Open for criticism
Yiennarda Enk
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Jepoy naman...
Submitted by Yiennarda on December 30, 2009 - 3:52am.
Wag mo na akong bolahin please? Umamin na nga ako sayo diba? Kaya wag mo nang dagdagan pa ang kahibangan ko hehehe!
Pero with all seriousness, thanks at nagustuhan mo... Coming from you I am honored. Tsaka alam kong ma-appreciate mo ito kasi alam ko naman ang mga type mong basahin eh hahaha! Ito yung mga klase ng posts na bina-back date ko sa blogsite ko Jeps kasi medyo "iba" ang readers natin sa blogosphere diba? Also, fiction mostly ang mga posts ko, at marami na akong ganitong entries sa site, kaya kung gusto mong mag work ang relationship natin (nyahahaha) eh magbasa-basa ka sa site ko at nang hindi ako lang nagsumusubaybay sayo okay?
Chinat na kita pero wala, dika sumagot!!! hmppft, pinagtataguan mo na ako no??
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Baket kita pag tataguan?!
Submitted by Jepipoy on December 30, 2009 - 9:18am.
Alam mo namang mahal na mahal kita, hindi ko magagawang pag taguan ka. It's just that I have some issues (NYeta gumaganown!)Jowk lang!
Eh kasi naman 'nung nag txt ka tulog na ako 'nun kasi naman 3AM na 'yun, wag ka ng mag tampo, kiss na kta mwahugs!. Well seriously, tama ka iba ang audience natin sa blogsite compare sa FW pero pareho namang mga tao 'yun hihihii.
Ok para mag work ang relationship natin mag ba-backread ako sa blogsite mo. Ahahahah
"Kung makati, try mong kamutin...There you go, sarap ng feeling, right?"
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Nyeta talaga kumanta na??
Submitted by Yiennarda on December 30, 2009 - 1:09pm.
Hahahahha, Naku kung may issues ka eh wag mo na akong dinadamay... may mahal na mahal ka pang nalalaman diyan. Kung mahal mo talaga ako patunayan mo! HAHAHAHHA!
Naku, mali ka don, hindi tao ang mga tao dito sa FW, mga elyen ang mga nagagawwi dito, kaya kung gusto mong magpaka-tao eh nanjan lang ang blog site hahah!
Hehe, thanks Jeps, jowke ko lang yung mag back read ka, baka mamaya niyan may mabasa ka pang mga di kanais nais. :D
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Mare,
Submitted by Luca on December 28, 2009 - 5:21pm.
sinong nagsasalita sa chap4?
naconfuse ako kung sino yung "good with (their) blowjob"
at the same time, gusto ko yung effect na I just whispered those in your ears... hanggang ending.
parang lalong kawawa yung character kasi niloloko niya yung sarili niya. nakita ko tuloy yung sarili ko. hehe
'sing sarap, 'di 'sing mahal...
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Nakuu Mare!
Submitted by Yiennarda on December 30, 2009 - 3:40am.
Sorry naman kung nakakalito ito. Actually isa lang ang nagsasalita dito at isa siyang guy who is falling in love with a girl. At pinapantasya ko na ako yung girl ganun lang hahaha!!!
Mahilig lang kasi akong magsulat from a point of view of a guy. Gusto ko kasi yung kawawa sila sa kwento ko... hurting, broken, miserable... hahaha! Kaya madaming nakakalitong statements diba?
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pareho...
Submitted by CLOSET WRITER on December 29, 2009 - 4:35pm.
parehong fantasy at in you dreams. pero mas parang mas ilusyon talaga haha!!!
ang tanong? sino ang pinapantasya mo at pinapanaginipan? ako ba to? hahah...
at oo nga, ako din naconfuse ko kung bakit "good in blow job" kc all the while akala ko babae yong main character, bakit sya iboblowjob? kaseng laki ba ng burat ang tinggil nya? haha, pardon my word.
cunnilingus: tawag kapag babae ang kinakain.lol
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cunnilingus: tawag kapag babae ang kinakain.lol
Submitted by Yiennarda on December 30, 2009 - 3:46am.
Galing ba sa google yan??? makonsulta nga si mareng wiki?
Ayan basahin mo yung comment ko kay Luca para dika na malito. Tae ka naman, singlaki ng burat ang tinggil ka pa jan hahaha.
At para sagutin ang tanong mo na...
ang tanong? sino ang pinapantasya mo at pinapanaginipan? ako ba to? hahah...
Masyado kitang nire-respeto para pag-pantasyahan Jo. HAHAHAHAHAHA, (may tawang ganun?)
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so may respetuhan palang nagaganap?
Submitted by Luca on December 30, 2009 - 9:50pm.
bastooooozzaaannnnaaaa!!!!
alam mo yani, may kembot yang role-playing na yan. tinatry ko rin yan-- everyday.
actually, kaya lang naman ako naging badette kasi gusto ko malaman yung feeling ng girls pag jinengjeng ko sila. (o, lumalaban ng patas yung hirit ko na yon)
happy nu rear!!!
foootoookkkkaaann niyo kooo!!
'sing sarap, 'di 'sing mahal...
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Of all peeps Luca, ikaw ang
Submitted by Yiennarda on December 31, 2009 - 12:36am.
Of all peeps Luca, ikaw ang dapat makaintindi.
Related ang comment ko sa comment ni adliserc sa baba. hahaha
Pero why not coconut? Basta ako, I want to try everything. Yun nga lang at the moment, parang alam ko pa rin naman ang stand ko.. at gusto ko pa rin naman mafffoooottttooookaaannn!!!
woooot!
Go figure!
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fotek
Submitted by Adlesirc on December 30, 2009 - 10:47pm.
"I talk to you while you are sleeping because this way, I can imagine the words you will tell me when I say those words. Because I got tired of thinking the opposite meanings of what you say whenever you are awake."
aw... ang love nga naman...
i like this yannie. galing =)
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Bingi na nga bulag pa diba?
Submitted by Yiennarda on December 31, 2009 - 12:38am.
Oo nga ang love nga naman...
Salamat Anne at nagustuhan mo ito. After shcok lang to ng baileys na tinira ko nung isang gabi hahaha!
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http://leserotika.i.ph/blogs/
Submitted by sinta isaac on December 31, 2009 - 1:35pm.
http://leserotika.i.ph/blogs/leserotika/
ang ganda nito yanie, speechless ako...
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Dumb founded din ako
Submitted by Yiennarda on December 31, 2009 - 4:14pm.
Dumb founded din ako sinta... Diko alam magugustuhan niyo tong emo ko. Medyo paksiyet lang kasi ako nung sinusulat ko to hehe
Thanks!
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Don't know what to say...
Chat mo sakin kung anung pinag huhugutan ng mga ganitong lathalain now na LOL.
I like the composition, maliwanag ang stand sa huling part at very strong and ending. One more thing, hindi dragging basahin. Ang ganda! May ganto ka palang factor Yannie ha...
"Kung makati, try mong kamutin...There you go, sarap ng feeling, right?"