Here I go again
I peer over the edge.
I dread the dark and looming depth.
I've been here before, I know.
Just yesterday I remember feeling heady with the wind blowing steadily all over me
And the lurching of my insides
And the racing of my heart against gravity
And the feeling of exhiliration as I wait to hit the floor which seemed never to reach me
Yet it did, with a heavy and distinct blow.
And frankly I don't know how I survived that fall,
Yet, strangely, I am back to where it all started before.
My toes now dangling over the edge
My fear amplified a thousand times over.
How I got here, I don't know.
I don't want to do this, not anymore.
Oops, I think I might have just lost footing
And now, this familiar heady feeling with the wind blowing steadily all over me
Here I go again.
Lord, please help me.
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ay ang galing...
Submitted by dollysbigbaby on March 31, 2010 - 11:22am.
i didn't see it that way pero may realization ako sa comment mo. hindi ko alam na ganun pala ang tingin ko sa sarili ko - victim, which shouldn't be the case. hindi ang paligid ko ang gumagalaw kundi ako. may motor skills nga pala ako that i can control. thanks a lot, mare. lam mo bang angel ka pala? ;-P
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hehe..
Submitted by Luca on March 31, 2010 - 12:02pm.
kala ko maooffend ka nga e.
kasi totoo yun. ang suicide ay isang selfish act. pero masarap maging selfish minsan minsan. hehehe.
angel pala ako ha...
magugustuhan yan ni derek ramsay. hehe
Kung ano man yung narinig mo, hindi "I love you" yun! Assumera!
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me maooffend?
Submitted by dollysbigbaby on March 31, 2010 - 10:12pm.
op kors not! (sabay taas ng isang kilay). ang husay nga e, libreng psychoanalysis. at korek ka dyan, suicide nga itoh.
ikaw yung psychiatrist donned devil complete with sungay and tail pero with angel's wings.
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gusto ko yung image
na may tumatalon mula sa gusali, pero yung lupa yung lumalapit sa kanya.
it fits suicide so perfectly.
first person, with the figure steady, and the world moving around him to victimize him.
may slight selfishness.
if not for the mess, what a lovely way to die.
Kung ano man yung narinig mo, hindi "I love you" yun! Assumera!