I Want to Feel Tired...So Tired
I want to feel tired
So tired that I could not think of anything to do once I get home
I want to feel numb
So I won't recognize happiness Happiness comes like a diamond
Deceiving and precious
Something IF one has, could make one leap for joy
AS IF nothing could be sweeter
Truth is: Happiness allows Sadness to enter one's once-boring-but-okay life
Sometimes it could press you hard
Not even giving you fair ratio
Sometimes I can't expect happiness to JUST give sadnessSometimes it gives frustration, grief even death...It kills once self which was built, broken and repaired for years...
I just hate being devastated!
It makes me feel like a loser.
It makes me feel ill.
It makes me feel like I wanna go pscyho...So if I am, I would have the right not to care of other people...
I would have the pride of keeping the real people around...I hate it most when I aim for happiness...
When I know for a fact it could kill me like poison kept in a seemingly small and harmless vial...I hate it much...
That I don't want to feel it...
That I wish to feel tired...so tired...That I won't have to think about it later before I go to sleep..
That I won't even have to ask: Am I happy or not?For at some point, nobody even care...
And even if they would, at some poiint (just like what a reader mag has said)
Some people may be happy that I am miserable or some may not even care at all...****Ice_07
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Maren Lat
I'm a Pscyhology graduate and is currently working as a Recruitment Associate in Teleperformance Philippines (a call center). I had other jobs before and I consider those my eye-openers to the real world. I find writing a good way to express my feelings. I have put my poems under the Unspoken Theme because these are all my unexpressed thoughts, kept in my inner self. Recently, someone was able to read one of these poems and he suggested to post them here. I thought my poems were not that good compared to others. I even called myself acting-poet especially when I'm sad. I used to think I can only write something when I'm not at a good state. the challenge now is to be able to write anytime, anyday. I must say I am amazed by the writings of other people here in filipinowriter.com. I hope, that you guys could also find something in mine. :)
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