So Close Yet So Far Away
Our paths crossed one day. And after a few getting-to-knows, we became so close as if we had known each other for so long.
Since that time, my little world revolved around you. My heart had been captured by your spell, and all that my mind could imagine was you.
I think about you every time – in my works, in the midst of a crowd, when I get up from bed, even before I go to sleep. The thought of you haunts me even in my dreams. I see your smile in every face. I hear your giggles in every laughter. And I feel your touch as the wind blows through my skin.
I picture you in every new friend I meet, in every place I go, and in everything I do. And whenever I’m sad, it’s your voice I want to hear.
But between us lie great barriers and horizons. I'm just straight before your eyes but you don't see me. My heart beats your rhythm but you don’t feel it. And even if I shout this feeling to the highest peak of my voice, you can never hear it. You are so close but yet so far away from me.
Yet, when I close my eyes, I see you suddenly come alive to my senses. It seems like the world is just between you and me, the heavens are within my reach, and the oceans are only a step apart. And you are there - one heartbeat away, so close and really, really near.
There, you smile back at me. We touch each other. We stare straight into each other’s eyes and our thoughts meet. We kiss and our hearts beat together as one. I shout loud to the highest peak of my voice this feeling as you answer it with a whisper in my ears.
There, we don’t care about the world around us. We play lovers’ games. We do crazy things. We explore and fill up each other’s longings. We fathom the depths and heights of our personhood. And we both reach over and over the summit of our burning passions.
There, every tick of a second spells like endlessness. We go to the beach. We cuddle in each other’s arms. We waste our precious time. We treasure the idleness. We talk of interesting nonsense. We watch at the breathtaking nothingness of the horizon. We stroll hand in hand by the sandy shore.
But as the sun finally sets and darkness envelopes our little world, we come to realize that happiness is transient that not even the deepest love nor the strongest feelings on earth have the power to hold on or turn back the hands of time.
Then I suddenly wake up from my deep slumber and find myself alone. And as I search for you in the corners of my mind, I see your face again - so close, but yet... so far away.

