Hey everyone! I haven't blogged in a really long time, but that's because I have been busy with work, my ex boyfriend, and my step dad has been really sick and he is in Louisville hospital about to have 2 surgeries.

I decided to blog today because I think it's necessary...today is the first day of the rest of my life. My ex boyfriend and I broke up for good yesterday after we put 2 1/2 years into our relationship and it hurts, but at the same time, I am actually quite numb to pain anymore.

I didn't sleep...I tossed and turn and felt like I was gonna puke up my guts, but I know that it's best to move on with my life.

He has hurt me in more ways than 1 in the past couple days and I just don't think I could ever date someone who could do those things to me.

I do however still want us to be friends because we have been through so much together and it would be crazy to let it just end and never talk again.

I wish him the best with his life and I hope that mine turns out okay too, I have faith that the lord will guide me where I need to be at this point and he will help me through these hard times.

I have no hate toward James and I will always love him, but I just don't feel the need to be with him anymore. I do wanna say thanks for what I thought was the best 2 years of my life. :)

God bless everyone!