At home, we didn’t practice the word. Most of the time, if there’s a feud between me and my siblings or “confrontation” with our parents and eventually hurt them, we just take some distance and let the emotions subside or shut up to avoid the clash.

After a while, as we speak to each other, the incident is considered a history. Never talk about the incident. We just talk, as if nothing happened.

I don’t know if that practice is healthy, ‘coz sometimes, if there’s another issues in the family, the past was brought up again. And it’s quite annoying because you thought that issues before were already settled though you never discuss it. I thought, as we talked, it was already put to history.

And most of the time, I practice that “attitude” to other people, thinking that same approach will be fine with them.

But I realized we are all different individuals that need different approach.

Maybe to some, it is ok not to utter the words. Just talking to them after the conflict is enough. But to others, saying I’m sorry is an important matter. They really wanted to hear the words from you.

Since, I am not used to it. It is quite hard for me. Others will say, just say the words and that’s it.

Yeah right. It is easier said than done!

I think it is not about pride (well that’s what I thought). Maybe, just maybe, others are simply not comfortable of saying the words.

But thinking that I hurt other people’s feeling especially those dear to me was enough motivation to take a big step and say “I’m sorry”. It doesn’t matter if I am the one who was offended or vice versa. It is simply thinking that uttering those words will bridge the gap between you and the person you hurt.

And with that big step, I believe that the relationship will transform into a stronger one.

How I wish that time will come that I’ll get use to it…

Well, as I think, it is not a bad idea at all that I’ll start today…